I AM NOT DEAD JUST
My internet hobbies take up too much time, and I should drop them all, but I can't. Bugger.
I haven't forgotten your flash fiction either. It's... flash in the very strictest sense of the word. I think one I did in one sentence. I am posting it AS WE SPEAK and I apologize for the lack of quality all around (I can't write anymore sob)
seriously I am so so behind and bad on my original fiction and on my creative nonfiction. I knew I should have just done the Associated Content job thingy but...
and I don't know how to get an agent
or how to get a house
or deal with my bills or get into graduate school or make my own doctor's appointments or get a life and why is the world large and scary?
In brighter news, I hung out at Folklife and bought the best socks. The Welsh apparently make the best socks. Mine are in my school colors. Which is winful.
EVERYONE WE SHOULD. HANG OUT SOMETIME. I think Videogames Live is at Wolf Trap on the 10th and I have no idea if we can get tickets or indeed what day the 10th is! woo! but we should try.
It would really help me a lot if I knew what my actual assigment was, and if the Blackboard page did not simply say "Finish Friday's assigment."
Yes, I wrote stuff down. None of it makes sense. As usual. And my partners in this project aren't helping me to remember.
This is why I hate working on group projects. I never know what I'm supposed to do, and if I mess up due to my own inability to pay attention, everyone suffers. Fantastic.
Got no Sem work done today becuase it was too nice outside and didn't read much either. Applied to one job and am behind on that too. Missed an important appointment earlier this week due to... I don't even know.
My life falls apart in slow spirals again and again and again and again and again.
If the paper gets finished. No. When the paper gets finished, it will be rocking. I honestly think that I may have done something that an undergrad should not be doing. I chose a book that frightens my own professors with its complexities.
I chose it. And now?
I own it.
I have unwound the labyrinth and I have seen its end; I understand this work on a level that I have seldom understood anything outside fandom (haha, oh dear.)
I have my fears. But they do not have me.
... and now to fail to work some more as I drown myself in dreams and, once again, forget to live.
My thesis adviser actually said "Oh noes" in an email to me (in response to me losing my copy of Beowulf which is ajfdslajfldj stresssssss)
I love this woman, have I mentioned this?
Man, Haunted (an album by Poe) really, really fucks with you if you've read House of Leaves.
Over the immediate omgwtfbbq. Now I just.
Have to write.
I'm going to breathe a little.
Did not get the National Zoo internship.
Wolf Trap confirmed that they got my application.
Still need to apply for more internships.
Can't becuase I have too much crap.
Broke down in Reacting today becuase I didn't have my argument together becuase I'd been busy working on Senior Sem yesterday.
Wow. Comicon was apparently a REALLY good idea. I'm just sad that I didn't know beforehand that they take resumes and writing samples at panels there, otherwise I would have gotten a portfolio. I DID learn that with my current major/minor I am ideally suited to work as a comic book editor. Holy shit yo.
I'm also bloody exhausted and completely behind on homework. oooops.